Merry Death

Now that I got that off my chest....

I really want to address how I feel. I am sad. I am disappointed, I am upset. I am mad, scared, pissed, frightened, horrified and depressed. I am concerned, helpless, and enraged. I don't know what I feel at this point.
I am finding it hard to accept this and move on, hence the overwhelming sense of helplessness and hopelessness. All that I hold dear and true was pissed on yesterday. All that I hope for in my life and or my daughter's was proven to be a silly dream.
I cannot start to heal because I am too busy trying to understand all that this means for someone with my beliefs. I cry everytime I start to wonder how America's gay population feels. (I suppose if I was a very conservative christian, I would suggest to them to "switch back"...what a load of shit.) I cry when I think of the rights that may be taken away from me with an all Republican government. I cry when I imagine how Iraqi families must feel. I feel like there is nothing that I can do to stop what will happen. I am simply.....down.
I am not sure I can come together to be a great country. I don't feel like its a great country, not headed up by this man. He represents everything that I am against and I believe everything that he does not. How can I compromise with that? I know that my one vote is supposed to matter, but at this point, I simply don't know how it can.

posted by Metalmeredith @ 6:31 PM